Blessed.

As a child, I always yearned to have BFF's and never quite had them. Every few years I would move to schools in totally different cities, which then forced me to try andmake new friends, which I hated with evey fiber of my being. Especially, becasue it would take almost a whole year and a 2 summers to bond with people to trust people, to open my self up and tell them my deepest,d arkets secrets. I guess I've always been a private person, since I really never had ayone to talk to. I grew up an only child until I was 8, and then my brothers and sister came from Guatemala and I thought life would be amazing!!! Now having siblings...yeah right!...they were sooo mean. Each day that passed I thought they hated me even more. I had no idea why at that time, but now I understand...they were jealous...maybe? because I had the "priviledge" to grow up my mom when in reality, they had no idea what I had been through all those lonely years. My mom always working, always driking with friends, leaving me in daycare til' they closed...it was horrible (ohhh damm there go the tears). All those years...I just wanted a friend. A sister. ANYTHING...it was so hard for me...and I think that's why now I'm a total hard ass and it's so hard for me to let my guard down with anyone. And now as an adult, I've tried to mature and grow stronger from those experiences, and tried to break every cycle possible. And I know most of you are suprised to read all this...and I have no idea where it's all coming from...but I guess this is what happens when you blog. hahaha. I'm growing up and discovering the adulthood side of life.

And now, I can honestly say that I have been blessed with wonderful friends. Friends who are so understanding, loving and caring! I'm not one to have hundreds and dozens of friends...you can I'm very selective and particular in choosing who to consider a true friend. When I first meet a person I usually don't like them right off the bat...who knows why?... but I don't but then something or a certain scenario brings light to my eyes and let's me see how wonderful some people truly are! These people being my special 3 Musketeers from work! They have grown to be more than just simple, plain ol' co-workers...I consider than friends to infinity and beyond! They put up with my rudeness, with my brutal sarcasm, my bitchiness and from time to time even my booty slappin'. Haha. And at the end of the day they still love me....yes..LOVE ME! little insignificant me, who cannot express enough how much I care about these girls. They empower me, they enhance my vocabulary everyday ( I love my big words of the DAY), and they make me want to be a better person. (BTW I'm totally tearing up as I'm writting this...and the boss totally walked in the middle sof me crying hahaha) Anyways, let us continue with the sensimental crap...lol!

In a very short time, we have gone through a lot of junk with these girls. I haven't been part of the many adventures since my mami-hood does not allow at times,but I enjoy every bit of the details they share with me. It's as if I'm part of the adventure while they are telling it to me. It's hilarious. We have intoxicated up the ying yang, cried together, laughed so hard we've nearly peed in our pants.

I wish every person out there in the world has at least has a Brandi, a Marki and a fabulous and fierce Geinel with a set of eyes exactly like hers...they may give you access to VIP sections of random places. A brandi is very much necessary also because she's a support system, she's a roll dogg, and freakin' hilarious. A marki is even more important becasue she's the life of thr party!!! She is great meeting, talking ot random folks and the perfect Disneyland partner. oh yeah and she has an amazing family and a daddy to makes killer WANGS...so you know she doens't have daddy "tissues" like yours truly.haha.
Ohhhh Daddy "tissues" are for another blog...'cause if I start now I'll never end. So for now to be continued...
So on this beautiful Tuesday morning I say to you my small, yet faithful public/fans...I love you dearly. I thank you putting up with me and always being there to listen to my tangents, day to day mami drama or even wifey drama and never being judgemental but instead being helpful and supportive. I'll always be ther for you guys NO MATTER what!!!! I'm SERIOUS! I might not be there for every party adventure...maybe until the girls are like 5 and totally independent...ok? ok!....but I'll definitely be ther when shit hits the fan (which hopefully is never). I appreciate evey bit of you and love each one you very mucho, although sometimes you all get on my nerves from time to time....but I get over it. haha.

I love you bithces!!!! ARIZONA will be lucky to have you there!

LET THE PARTY BEGIN...

<3 Nat